So, today is day one, I am going to choose ONE person that I am thankful for... And darn it if mom didn't try to show me up on fb by posting hers... Figures, ;P
But, I wanna post pix too...
But I cannot get an actual photo of this person, but I can get a photo of a picture of this person.
I took a picture of my calendar. This is the Savior hugging his mother. Now, this was the photo for May, the month James died. And when I got home, and I saw it, it made me think about the Savior and myself. I imagined the Savior having His arms wrapped around me, comforting me. It was almost too much... But that thought has stayed with me.
There have been so many times in the last five months, where I have felt the Savior with me. He has comforted me, He has shared my sorrows. I know He was there to take James home. I felt him behind me in the early morning hours when Sheldon gave James a blessing. Yes, I knew the Savior was with us. I knew J's time was short then. I knew the Savior would be there to take him home. I know the conversation they may have had. James would have thanked Him for being there for him in his dimmest hours. James would have thanked the Savior for standing up for him against Satan.
Yes, I am extremely grateful for my Savior, Jesus Christ. I am thankful He and the Lord have watched out for me. I've been dealing with a lot of grief the last several weeks, but I am grateful. I could have had to deal with emotional pain and grief when I was also dealing with physical pain, when I ended up having to have my gall bladder out. I think back and cannot imagine having to deal with both. I know I have more to do, more to go through, more to learn, and more to grow. But I know, I can lean on the Savior, I have to just remember that. Sometimes I forget. And sometimes I am a slow learner (like knowing that I do have a strong spirit, for if not, I would be a puddle on the floor). But the Savior, He knows me and He knows that I will always return to Him.
(Photo is one I took with my phone of my calendar of art by Liz Lemon-Swindle).
